OFTEN CONSIDERED THE BEST NEWS, BUT FOR MANY WOMEN, THAT BUNDLE BUT FOR MANY WOMEN, THAT BUNDLE OF JOY CAN LEAD TO A BATTLE WITH OF JOY CAN LEAD TO A BATTLE WITH DEPRESSION OR OTHER MENTAL DEPRESSION OR OTHER MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES. ABC'S JANE HEALTH STRUGGLES. ABC'S JANE NORMAN TAKES A CLOSER LOOK AT NORMAN TAKES A CLOSER LOOK AT THE POSTPARTUM STRUGGLES THAT SO THE POSTPARTUM STRUGGLES THAT SO MANY MOTHERS FACE FOR THE LATEST MANY MOTHERS FACE FOR THE LATEST INSTALLMENT IN OUR MENTAL HEALTH INSTALLMENT IN OUR MENTAL HEALTH SERIES, STATE OF MIND. WHERE'S SERIES, STATE OF MIND. WHERE'S THE PARK ONES? THE MOTHER OF A THE PARK ONES? THE MOTHER OF A PRECOCIOUS THREE YEAR OLD. I PRECOCIOUS THREE YEAR OLD. I THOUGHT IT WAS ON THIS SIDE. NO, THOUGHT IT WAS ON THIS SIDE. NO, NO. BACK UP THE OTHER A MOM TO A NO. BACK UP THE OTHER A MOM TO A LOVING TODDLER. YEAH. BOTH LOVING TODDLER. YEAH. BOTH LIVING DIFFERENT LIFESTYLES. LIVING DIFFERENT LIFESTYLES. GRETCHEN AND CALIFORNIA, AYANNA GRETCHEN AND CALIFORNIA, AYANNA AND FLORIDA SHARE ONE COMMON AND FLORIDA SHARE ONE COMMON STRUGGLE THAT EVERY YEAR ALSO STRUGGLE THAT EVERY YEAR ALSO AFFECTS MILLIONS OF OTHER NEW AFFECTS MILLIONS OF OTHER NEW MOMS. PREGNANCY RELATED DISORDER MOMS. PREGNANCY RELATED DISORDER , LIKE POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION. I , LIKE POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION. I PRAYED FOR HER AND I ASKED FOR PRAYED FOR HER AND I ASKED FOR HER FOR SO MANY YEARS, BUT I HER FOR SO MANY YEARS, BUT I DIDN'T FEEL CONNECTED TO HER THE DIDN'T FEEL CONNECTED TO HER THE WAY THAT I WANTED TO, AND THAT WAY THAT I WANTED TO, AND THAT MADE ME FEEL GUILT AND MADE ME FEEL GUILT AND POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS. I HEARD POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS. I HEARD FROM GOD MY DAUGHTER WAS THE FROM GOD MY DAUGHTER WAS THE SECOND COMING OF JESUS AND THAT SECOND COMING OF JESUS AND THAT I WAS GOING TO REWRITE THE I WAS GOING TO REWRITE THE BIBLE. IT JUST WAS LIKE. SO BIBLE. IT JUST WAS LIKE. SO BEYOND THE ESTIMATES ARE 15 TO BEYOND THE ESTIMATES ARE 15 TO 20% OF WOMEN EXPERIENCE 20% OF WOMEN EXPERIENCE POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION OR A POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION OR A PREGNANCY RELATED MOOD DISORDER PREGNANCY RELATED MOOD DISORDER THAT'S DIAGNOSED, CONFIRMED THAT'S DIAGNOSED, CONFIRMED REPORTED CASES. THE TRUE NUMBER REPORTED CASES. THE TRUE NUMBER IS LIKELY MUCH HIGHER. NEWPORT IS LIKELY MUCH HIGHER. NEWPORT BEACH, CALIFORNIA, HOME TO REAL BEACH, CALIFORNIA, HOME TO REAL HOUSEWIVES OF ORANGE COUNTY'S HOUSEWIVES OF ORANGE COUNTY'S GRETCHEN ROSSI. WHEN THE GOING GRETCHEN ROSSI. WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, I JUST GET STRONGER GETS TOUGH, I JUST GET STRONGER AND STRONGER. AND HER PARTNER, AND STRONGER. AND HER PARTNER, SLADE SMILEY, I HOPE YOU'LL SLADE SMILEY, I HOPE YOU'LL MARRY ME. AND I HOPE THAT WE CAN MARRY ME. AND I HOPE THAT WE CAN HAVE A WONDERFUL, FABULOUS MAYBE HAVE A WONDERFUL, FABULOUS MAYBE NOT PERFECT, BUT HAPPY LIFE NOT PERFECT, BUT HAPPY LIFE TOGETHER. THE COUPLE UNDERWENT TOGETHER. THE COUPLE UNDERWENT IVF FOR FOUR AND A HALF YEARS, IVF FOR FOUR AND A HALF YEARS, HOPING TO HAVE CHILDREN FINALLY HOPING TO HAVE CHILDREN FINALLY RECEIVING THE NEWS THEY'D BEEN RECEIVING THE NEWS THEY'D BEEN WAITING FOR. WELL, ARE YOU WAITING FOR. WELL, ARE YOU SITTING DOWN? YEAH, BECAUSE YOU SITTING DOWN? YEAH, BECAUSE YOU ARE PREGNANT. OH, MY GOD. I WENT ARE PREGNANT. OH, MY GOD. I WENT INTO IT WITH SUCH A POSITIVE INTO IT WITH SUCH A POSITIVE MINDSET. I HAD THE BEST MINDSET. I HAD THE BEST PREGNANCY I'VE NEVER FELT MORE PREGNANCY I'VE NEVER FELT MORE BEAUTIFUL OR MORE CONFIDENT EVER BEAUTIFUL OR MORE CONFIDENT EVER IN MY LIFE. GRETCHEN EVENTUALLY IN MY LIFE. GRETCHEN EVENTUALLY GAVE BIRTH TO A HEALTHY DAUGHTER GAVE BIRTH TO A HEALTHY DAUGHTER , SKYLAR GRAY. SMILEY BUT , SKYLAR GRAY. SMILEY BUT IMMEDIATELY AFTERWARDS, A IMMEDIATELY AFTERWARDS, A DRASTIC TURNING POINT WHEN THEY DRASTIC TURNING POINT WHEN THEY FIRST HANDED ME THE BABY, I FIRST HANDED ME THE BABY, I THINK I HAD THIS VISION OF THIS, THINK I HAD THIS VISION OF THIS, YOU KNOW, ANGELIC, LIKE, YOU YOU KNOW, ANGELIC, LIKE, YOU KNOW, OH, LIKE THE SKY PARTS. KNOW, OH, LIKE THE SKY PARTS. AND THIS RAY OF SUNSHINE COMES AND THIS RAY OF SUNSHINE COMES THROUGH. I JUST REMEMBER THROUGH. I JUST REMEMBER IMMEDIATELY FEELING A DESCANT IMMEDIATELY FEELING A DESCANT ACT. SOMETHING FELT OFF TO ME ACT. SOMETHING FELT OFF TO ME THOUGH. GRETCHEN ALWAYS THOUGH. GRETCHEN ALWAYS PHYSICALLY CARED FOR SKYLER. SHE PHYSICALLY CARED FOR SKYLER. SHE SAYS SHE STRUGGLED WITH SAYS SHE STRUGGLED WITH CONNECTING WITH HER DAUGHTER CONNECTING WITH HER DAUGHTER EMOTIONALLY. I CRIED A LOT. I EMOTIONALLY. I CRIED A LOT. I WAS UNBELIEVABLY EXHAUSTED. AND WAS UNBELIEVABLY EXHAUSTED. AND I REMEMBER MY MOOD SWINGS WENT I REMEMBER MY MOOD SWINGS WENT FROM JUST A REALLY FEELING HIGH FROM JUST A REALLY FEELING HIGH AND HAPPY AND LIKE, I'M KILLING AND HAPPY AND LIKE, I'M KILLING THE MOM GAME TO I JUST FELT LIKE THE MOM GAME TO I JUST FELT LIKE A COMPLETE AND TOTAL FAILURE AND A COMPLETE AND TOTAL FAILURE AND THAT I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING THAT I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. NOT THE MOST OBVIOUS RIGHT. NOT THE MOST OBVIOUS SYMPTOM IS TEARFULNESS, BUT SYMPTOM IS TEARFULNESS, BUT THERE COULD BE FEELINGS OF FEAR, THERE COULD BE FEELINGS OF FEAR, FEELINGS OF SADNESS, FEELINGS OF FEELINGS OF SADNESS, FEELINGS OF GUILT, DETACHMENT FROM THAT GUILT, DETACHMENT FROM THAT NEWBORN IN NOT WANTING TO CARE NEWBORN IN NOT WANTING TO CARE FOR THE INFANT OR NEWBORN OR FOR THE INFANT OR NEWBORN OR OTHER CHILDREN. MY GYNECOLOGIST OTHER CHILDREN. MY GYNECOLOGIST CALLED ME AND SHE'S LIKE, WE CALLED ME AND SHE'S LIKE, WE NEED TO TALK. AND I THINK THAT NEED TO TALK. AND I THINK THAT YOU DON'T REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE YOU DON'T REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE REALLY BAD POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION REALLY BAD POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION . AND LOOK, I'M GOING TO CRY . AND LOOK, I'M GOING TO CRY LIKE IT MAKES ME SAD. I FELT LIKE IT MAKES ME SAD. I FELT LIKE I WAS FAILING MY DAUGHTER LIKE I WAS FAILING MY DAUGHTER AND I DIDN'T WANT TO LET HER AND I DIDN'T WANT TO LET HER DOWN. I KIND OF REMEMBER THAT DOWN. I KIND OF REMEMBER THAT FOR ME, I FELT A LITTLE BIT OF FOR ME, I FELT A LITTLE BIT OF RELIEF FINALLY KNOWING WHAT WAS RELIEF FINALLY KNOWING WHAT WAS HAPPENING. I COULD START LOOKING HAPPENING. I COULD START LOOKING TO FINDING A SOLUTION. I NO TO FINDING A SOLUTION. I NO LONGER FELT AS MUCH GUILT. IT LONGER FELT AS MUCH GUILT. IT WAS MORE MY BODY TRULY HAD THIS WAS MORE MY BODY TRULY HAD THIS CHEMICAL IMBALANCE THAT I COULD CHEMICAL IMBALANCE THAT I COULD NOT CONTROL. IN RECENT YEARS, NOT CONTROL. IN RECENT YEARS, CELEBRITY MOMS HAVE SHARED THEIR CELEBRITY MOMS HAVE SHARED THEIR OWN STORIES OF POSTPARTUM OWN STORIES OF POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION, HELPING NORMALIZE DEPRESSION, HELPING NORMALIZE THE ISSUE. AMONG THE FIRST TO THE ISSUE. AMONG THE FIRST TO SPEAK OUT BACK IN 2005 WAS SPEAK OUT BACK IN 2005 WAS BROOKE SHIELDS ON OPRAH. I AM SO BROOKE SHIELDS ON OPRAH. I AM SO , SO THANKFUL THAT THAT I DIDN'T , SO THANKFUL THAT THAT I DIDN'T HAVE THE DESIRE TO HURT HER, BUT HAVE THE DESIRE TO HURT HER, BUT I CERTAINLY DIDN'T HAVE THE I CERTAINLY DIDN'T HAVE THE DESIRE TO HELP HER EITHER. I DESIRE TO HELP HER EITHER. I WANTED TO HURT MYSELF. I WANTED WANTED TO HURT MYSELF. I WANTED TO OBLITERATE MYSELF AND THEN I TO OBLITERATE MYSELF AND THEN I WOULD HAVE VISIONS OF HER OR WOULD HAVE VISIONS OF HER OR THIS LITTLE BODY HITTING THE THIS LITTLE BODY HITTING THE WALL AND SLIDING DOWN. I WASN'T WALL AND SLIDING DOWN. I WASN'T THE ONE THROWING HER, BUT I SAW THE ONE THROWING HER, BUT I SAW IT. IT WAS LIKE AN ACTION MOVIE. IT. IT WAS LIKE AN ACTION MOVIE. A RECENT STUDY SHOWS THE NUMBER A RECENT STUDY SHOWS THE NUMBER OF MOMS DIAGNOSED CLOSED WITH OF MOMS DIAGNOSED CLOSED WITH POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION HAS ALMOST POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION HAS ALMOST DOUBLED IN THE PAST TEN YEARS. DOUBLED IN THE PAST TEN YEARS. EXPERTS SAY TALK THERAPY, ALONG EXPERTS SAY TALK THERAPY, ALONG WITH PRESCRIPTION WITH PRESCRIPTION ANTIDEPRESSANTS, CAN HELP, ANTIDEPRESSANTS, CAN HELP, USUALLY WITHIN MONTHS. WE'RE USUALLY WITHIN MONTHS. WE'RE GOING TO TURN NOW TO THE NEW GOING TO TURN NOW TO THE NEW FAST ACTING POSTPARTUM PILL FAST ACTING POSTPARTUM PILL UNDER FDA CONSIDERATION, NEW UNDER FDA CONSIDERATION, NEW HOPE IS ALSO ON THE HORIZON IN HOPE IS ALSO ON THE HORIZON IN THE FIRST OF ITS KIND PILL TO THE FIRST OF ITS KIND PILL TO SPECIFIC TREAT POSTPARTUM SPECIFIC TREAT POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION, ZURANOLONE COULD BE DEPRESSION, ZURANOLONE COULD BE APPROVED BY THE FDA THIS SUMMER APPROVED BY THE FDA THIS SUMMER IF APPROVED, THIS PILL COULD IF APPROVED, THIS PILL COULD HELP MILLIONS OF WOMEN LIKE HELP MILLIONS OF WOMEN LIKE GRETCHEN. I REMEMBER STARING OUT GRETCHEN. I REMEMBER STARING OUT THE WINDOW AND JUST TEARS THE WINDOW AND JUST TEARS ROLLING DOWN MY EYES AS I'M ROLLING DOWN MY EYES AS I'M BREASTFEEDING HER. I WAS TRYING BREASTFEEDING HER. I WAS TRYING , TRAPPED INSIDE MY OWN HOME, , TRAPPED INSIDE MY OWN HOME, HAVING TO TAKE CARE OF MY CHILD HAVING TO TAKE CARE OF MY CHILD . AND I REMEMBER HAVING SO MUCH . AND I REMEMBER HAVING SO MUCH GUILT AROUND HAVING THOSE GUILT AROUND HAVING THOSE FEELINGS. PREGNANCY RELATED FEELINGS. PREGNANCY RELATED DISORDERS CAN HAVE A RIPPLE DISORDERS CAN HAVE A RIPPLE EFFECT BEYOND JUST THE MOTHER. I EFFECT BEYOND JUST THE MOTHER. I WAS SO CONCERNED FOR HER MENTAL WAS SO CONCERNED FOR HER MENTAL HEALTH. IT WAS SCARY BECAUSE IS HEALTH. IT WAS SCARY BECAUSE IS I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE MEDICAL CONDITION. I CAN'T MEDICAL CONDITION. I CAN'T CHANGE THAT. SO I JUST DID CHANGE THAT. SO I JUST DID EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY COULD TO EVERYTHING I POSSIBLY COULD TO TAKE AS MUCH PRESSURE OFF OF HER TAKE AS MUCH PRESSURE OFF OF HER AS I COULD. AT FIRST, GRETCHEN AS I COULD. AT FIRST, GRETCHEN DECIDED TO RESIST PRESCRIPTION DECIDED TO RESIST PRESCRIPTION DRUGS. TURNING TO HOMEOPATHIC DRUGS. TURNING TO HOMEOPATHIC REMEDIES AND CBD. IT TOOK TWO REMEDIES AND CBD. IT TOOK TWO THREE YEARS TILL I ACTUALLY FELT THREE YEARS TILL I ACTUALLY FELT LIKE MYSELF. NOW THAT MIGHT BE LIKE MYSELF. NOW THAT MIGHT BE TOTALLY DUE TO THE ROUTE THAT I TOTALLY DUE TO THE ROUTE THAT I TOOK. MAYBE TAKING THE TOOK. MAYBE TAKING THE PHARMACEUTICAL DRUGS WOULD HAVE PHARMACEUTICAL DRUGS WOULD HAVE GOTTEN ME BACK TO WHERE I FELT GOTTEN ME BACK TO WHERE I FELT LIKE MYSELF AGAIN MUCH QUICKER LIKE MYSELF AGAIN MUCH QUICKER FOR AS APPEALING AS SOMETHING FOR AS APPEALING AS SOMETHING NATURAL IS, YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT NATURAL IS, YOU HAVE TO LOOK AT THE EVIDENCE BASED MEDICINE. THE EVIDENCE BASED MEDICINE. THERE AND MAKE THAT DECISION THERE AND MAKE THAT DECISION RISK VERSUS BENEFIT AND RISK VERSUS BENEFIT AND UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT'S AT UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT'S AT STAKE. WHILE MILLIONS OF MOMS STAKE. WHILE MILLIONS OF MOMS HAVE STRUGGLED WITH POSTPARTUM HAVE STRUGGLED WITH POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION LIKE GRETCHEN, DEPRESSION LIKE GRETCHEN, MILLIONS MORE HAVE PREGNANCY MILLIONS MORE HAVE PREGNANCY RELATED ANXIETY AND A FRACTION RELATED ANXIETY AND A FRACTION HAVE SOMETHING MUCH MORE SEVERE HAVE SOMETHING MUCH MORE SEVERE AND POTENTIALLY DANGER WORSE AND POTENTIALLY DANGER WORSE POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS IS I KIND POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS IS I KIND OF ALWAYS KNEW THAT I WANTED OF ALWAYS KNEW THAT I WANTED KIDS. IT WAS SOMETHING ON THE KIDS. IT WAS SOMETHING ON THE HORIZON FOR US. 29 YEAR OLD HORIZON FOR US. 29 YEAR OLD AYANNA LAGE AND HER HUSBAND, AYANNA LAGE AND HER HUSBAND, WAGNER, WERE COLLEGE SWEETHEARTS WAGNER, WERE COLLEGE SWEETHEARTS AND WELCOMED THEIR DAUGHTER NORA AND WELCOMED THEIR DAUGHTER NORA IN 2020. I FELT AMAZING, LIKE I IN 2020. I FELT AMAZING, LIKE I WAS MEANT TO BE A MOTHER ALL WAS MEANT TO BE A MOTHER ALL ALONG BECAUSE IT HAD JUST ALONG BECAUSE IT HAD JUST AWAKENED SOMETHING IN ME. WAS AWAKENED SOMETHING IN ME. WAS THERE A POINT WHEN THAT CHANGED? THERE A POINT WHEN THAT CHANGED? YEAH YES. MY MOOD WENT FROM YEAH YES. MY MOOD WENT FROM BEING LIKE, DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY BEING LIKE, DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY AND FEELING JUST SO GREAT AT AND FEELING JUST SO GREAT AT EVERYTHING THING TO NOT BEING EVERYTHING THING TO NOT BEING ABLE TO MOVE BECAUSE I WAS JUST ABLE TO MOVE BECAUSE I WAS JUST LIKE, SO SAD AND I DIDN'T KNOW LIKE, SO SAD AND I DIDN'T KNOW WHY, AYANNA SAYS. IN THE SPAN OF WHY, AYANNA SAYS. IN THE SPAN OF EIGHT DAYS, HER PARANOIA SET IN. EIGHT DAYS, HER PARANOIA SET IN. I WOKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE I WOKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND I HAD THIS LIKE JUST NIGHT AND I HAD THIS LIKE JUST OVERWHELMING FEAR, THIS GUT OVERWHELMING FEAR, THIS GUT REALIZATION THAT I COULDN'T REALIZATION THAT I COULDN'T TRUST MY HUSBAND OR MY PARENTS TRUST MY HUSBAND OR MY PARENTS WHO WERE THERE TO HELP AROUND MY WHO WERE THERE TO HELP AROUND MY DAUGHTER. THE TAMPA BASED WRITER DAUGHTER. THE TAMPA BASED WRITER AND BLOGGER SAYS SHE AND HER AND BLOGGER SAYS SHE AND HER FAMILY CAME TO THE REALIZATION FAMILY CAME TO THE REALIZATION THAT SOMETHING WAS VERY WRONG. THAT SOMETHING WAS VERY WRONG. PROBABLY AROUND EIGHT DAYS AFTER PROBABLY AROUND EIGHT DAYS AFTER NORA WAS BORN, I STARTED TO HEAR NORA WAS BORN, I STARTED TO HEAR MESSAGES FROM GOD AND THAT, I MESSAGES FROM GOD AND THAT, I THINK, WAS KIND OF I DON'T WANT THINK, WAS KIND OF I DON'T WANT TO SAY THE BEGINNING OF THE END, TO SAY THE BEGINNING OF THE END, BUT THE FIRST REAL SIGN THAT I BUT THE FIRST REAL SIGN THAT I MAY NEED INTENSIVE INPATIENT MAY NEED INTENSIVE INPATIENT TREATMENT. I SAID, I'M GOING TO TREATMENT. I SAID, I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF IF YOU DON'T TAKE ME KILL MYSELF IF YOU DON'T TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL. WHEN SHE SAID TO THE HOSPITAL. WHEN SHE SAID THAT AND THAT IT WAS JUST LIKE, THAT AND THAT IT WAS JUST LIKE, THIS IS IT. I REMEMBER BREAKING THIS IS IT. I REMEMBER BREAKING DOWN JUST CRYING LIKE THIS. THIS DOWN JUST CRYING LIKE THIS. THIS IS AWFUL. LIKE, THIS IS THE IS AWFUL. LIKE, THIS IS THE WORST DECISION I'VE EVER HAD TO WORST DECISION I'VE EVER HAD TO MAKE. AYANNA SPENT 17 DAYS IN MAKE. AYANNA SPENT 17 DAYS IN THE HOSPITAL. ONCE YOU GOT HOME THE HOSPITAL. ONCE YOU GOT HOME AND REALIZING THAT OF YOUR AND REALIZING THAT OF YOUR DAUGHTER'S FIRST MONTH, YOU'D DAUGHTER'S FIRST MONTH, YOU'D MISSED 17 DAYS THAT YOU WERE MISSED 17 DAYS THAT YOU WERE NEVER GOING TO GET BACK. IT FELT NEVER GOING TO GET BACK. IT FELT VERY UNFAIR. WHEN I GOT HOME, I VERY UNFAIR. WHEN I GOT HOME, I WAS STILL SO HIGHLY MEDICATED WAS STILL SO HIGHLY MEDICATED THAT I WAS SLEEPING EVEN ONCE I THAT I WAS SLEEPING EVEN ONCE I GOT HOME, I STILL WAS MISSING SO GOT HOME, I STILL WAS MISSING SO MUCH. I HAD TO JUST MAKE PEACE MUCH. I HAD TO JUST MAKE PEACE WITH IT AND BE GRATEFUL THAT I WITH IT AND BE GRATEFUL THAT I STILL HAVE OF THE REST OF HER STILL HAVE OF THE REST OF HER LIFE TO MAKE MEMORIES WITH HER LIFE TO MAKE MEMORIES WITH HER POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS. WE DON'T POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS. WE DON'T HEAR ABOUT THAT OFTEN BECAUSE HEAR ABOUT THAT OFTEN BECAUSE IT'S SO RARE. IT'S MORE 1 OR 2 IT'S SO RARE. IT'S MORE 1 OR 2 WOMEN OUT OF A THOUSAND. DR. WOMEN OUT OF A THOUSAND. DR. DEBORAH KNUTSON GONZALEZ IS A DEBORAH KNUTSON GONZALEZ IS A REPRODUCTIVE PSYCHIATRIST. SHE REPRODUCTIVE PSYCHIATRIST. SHE SAYS SYMPTOMS FOR POSTPARTUM SAYS SYMPTOMS FOR POSTPARTUM PSYCHOSIS INCLUDE LOSING TOUCH PSYCHOSIS INCLUDE LOSING TOUCH WITH REALITY IN SOME WAY. IT WITH REALITY IN SOME WAY. IT MIGHT BE THAT YOU'RE MIGHT BE THAT YOU'RE HALLUCINATING, HEAR VOICES OR HALLUCINATING, HEAR VOICES OR PEOPLE TELLING YOU TO DO THINGS. PEOPLE TELLING YOU TO DO THINGS. IT MIGHT BE THEY'RE SEEING IT MIGHT BE THEY'RE SEEING THINGS THAT OTHER PEOPLE CAN'T THINGS THAT OTHER PEOPLE CAN'T SEE. EXPERTS SAY OTHER WARNING SEE. EXPERTS SAY OTHER WARNING SIGNS CAN INCLUDE CONFUSION, SIGNS CAN INCLUDE CONFUSION, DELUSIONS, CHANGE IN SLEEP, DELUSIONS, CHANGE IN SLEEP, PATTERN AND THOUGHTS OF PATTERN AND THOUGHTS OF SELF-HARM OR OTHERS, AND RAPID SELF-HARM OR OTHERS, AND RAPID MOOD SWINGS. AYANA'S OWN PRIOR MOOD SWINGS. AYANA'S OWN PRIOR HISTORY PUT HER AT A HIGHER RISK HISTORY PUT HER AT A HIGHER RISK . BUT DESPITE THE SEVERITY OF . BUT DESPITE THE SEVERITY OF POST PARTUM PSYCHOSIS, IT IS POST PARTUM PSYCHOSIS, IT IS TREATABLE. THINGS WILL GET TREATABLE. THINGS WILL GET BETTER. THE WOMAN DOES NOT HAVE BETTER. THE WOMAN DOES NOT HAVE TO SUFFER FOR INDEFINITELY TO SUFFER FOR INDEFINITELY WITHOUT TREATMENT AND WITHOUT WITHOUT TREATMENT AND WITHOUT SUPPORT. BUT THE KEY IS TAKING SUPPORT. BUT THE KEY IS TAKING THAT FIRST STEP IN ASKING FOR THAT FIRST STEP IN ASKING FOR HELP AND THEN GETTING HELP. HELP AND THEN GETTING HELP. SLOWLY BUT SURELY, MOST WOMEN SLOWLY BUT SURELY, MOST WOMEN RETURN TO THEIR THE SAME LEVEL RETURN TO THEIR THE SAME LEVEL OF FUNCTION AT SOME POINT IN THE OF FUNCTION AT SOME POINT IN THE JOB. NORA IS NOW TWO YEARS OLD, JOB. NORA IS NOW TWO YEARS OLD, AND THE LADIES SAY THEY ARE AND THE LADIES SAY THEY ARE GRATEFUL TO BE ON THE OTHER SIDE GRATEFUL TO BE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF SUCH A HARROWING EXPERIENCE. OF SUCH A HARROWING EXPERIENCE. FOR NOW, MY LIFE IS SO FULL AND FOR NOW, MY LIFE IS SO FULL AND MY DAUGHTER IS DOING SO WELL AND MY DAUGHTER IS DOING SO WELL AND WE HAVE SUCH. I'M JUST SO WE HAVE SUCH. I'M JUST SO GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING. SO I GRATEFUL FOR EVERYTHING. SO I THINK I'M NOW ABLE TO LOOK AT IT THINK I'M NOW ABLE TO LOOK AT IT LIKE, OKAY, THIS IS HOW FAR I'VE LIKE, OKAY, THIS IS HOW FAR I'VE COME, RATHER THAN ALL OF MY COME, RATHER THAN ALL OF MY EMOTIONS BEING GRIEVING OVER EMOTIONS BEING GRIEVING OVER WHAT I LOST. IF I SHARE THIS WHAT I LOST. IF I SHARE THIS STORY, THERE'S A CHANCE. IT'S STORY, THERE'S A CHANCE. IT'S ONE THAT SOMEONE WHO HAD HAD THE ONE THAT SOMEONE WHO HAD HAD THE SAME EXPERIENCE WILL FEEL LESS SAME EXPERIENCE WILL FEEL LESS LONELY. MORE IMPORTANTLY, FOR ME LONELY. MORE IMPORTANTLY, FOR ME , THAT SOMEONE MAY SEE THE , THAT SOMEONE MAY SEE THE WARNING SIGNS. WHAT DO YOU THINK WARNING SIGNS. WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT FAMILY OR SPOUSES OF THAT FAMILY OR SPOUSES OF SOMEONE WHO IS GOING THROUGH SOMEONE WHO IS GOING THROUGH THIS HAS GONE THROUGH THIS, THIS HAS GONE THROUGH THIS, SHOULD KNOW IF YOU STICK BY THAT SHOULD KNOW IF YOU STICK BY THAT PERSON, IF YOU SHOW THEM THE PERSON, IF YOU SHOW THEM THE LOVE THAT THEY NEED IN THAT TIME LOVE THAT THEY NEED IN THAT TIME , THE THINGS WILL GET BETTER IN , THE THINGS WILL GET BETTER IN THE END. SHE'S SHE'S HERSELF THE END. SHE'S SHE'S HERSELF AGAIN. SHE'S FULFILLED. SHE'S AGAIN. SHE'S FULFILLED. SHE'S THE BEST MOTHER I'VE EVER SEEN. THE BEST MOTHER I'VE EVER SEEN. SO THIS IS THE SPOT THAT I WOULD SO THIS IS THE SPOT THAT I WOULD ALWAYS COME DOWN TO. AND I WOULD ALWAYS COME DOWN TO. AND I WOULD SIT HERE AND I WOULD LOOK OUT AT SIT HERE AND I WOULD LOOK OUT AT THE WATER AND I WOULD HELP CLEAR THE WATER AND I WOULD HELP CLEAR MY MIND FROM REAL HOUSEWIVES TO MY MIND FROM REAL HOUSEWIVES TO REAL LIFE, GRETCHEN IS EAGER TO REAL LIFE, GRETCHEN IS EAGER TO HELP OTHERS. I WANT WOMEN OUT HELP OTHERS. I WANT WOMEN OUT THERE TO KNOW THAT LIKE A YOU'RE THERE TO KNOW THAT LIKE A YOU'RE NOT ALONE, BUT B, WE GOT TO STOP NOT ALONE, BUT B, WE GOT TO STOP PUTTING THIS MUCH PRESSURE ON PUTTING THIS MUCH PRESSURE ON OURSELVES. WE GOT TO BE ABLE TO OURSELVES. WE GOT TO BE ABLE TO OPEN UP. WE GOT TO BE ABLE TO OPEN UP. WE GOT TO BE ABLE TO TALK AND SAY, I'M STRUGGLING OR TALK AND SAY, I'M STRUGGLING OR I NEED HELP. LET'S HAVE A BETTER I NEED HELP. LET'S HAVE A BETTER OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH WHAT IT OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A MOM AND LET'S GET MEANS TO BE A MOM AND LET'S GET REAL ABOUT THAT. OUR THANKS TO REAL ABOUT THAT. OUR THANKS TO JENNY. AND IF YOU THINK YOU OR JENNY. AND IF YOU THINK YOU OR SOMEONE YOU KNOW IS EXPERIENCING SOMEONE YOU KNOW IS EXPERIENCING AN URGENT MENTAL HEALTH CRISIS, AN URGENT MENTAL HEALTH CRISIS, CALL OR TEXT THE SUICIDE CRISIS. CALL OR TEXT THE SUICIDE CRISIS. LIFELINE